My Journey With God and Acne: A Personal Testimony (Part Three)

That summer of 2012 I broke down and admitted I couldn’t go on in life without Jesus Christ. I stopped some of my sinful habits, which were giving Satan a foothold in my life and started spending time with the Lord. Right after starting to do this, I suffered the worst series of panic attacks I had ever experienced in my life that left me fighting to breathe. Part of me wanted to give up, but God spoke to me and told me that the panic attacks were from Satan and that I had to keep fighting. So I kept at it. Around this time, I went to stay with my uncle out of state for the summer holiday. Since he had to work during the day, and had to use the only car, I had the days to myself and had plenty of time on my hands. I decided to use it wisely and started to delve even deeper into my walk with God. I spoke scripture over my life and mind, read the Bible and bound the various demonic spirits that were afflicting me with doubt, worry, anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts, among others. After a few days of doing this, an overwhelming sense of peace and joy swept over me. All anxiety left me and I don’t think I had ever been more at peace in my entire life. Not only that, I could now touch my face and let other things touch it with absolutely no anxiety. I knew I had found the answer to my problems. For the next 5 months, I got even closer to the Lord and strived to hear his voice. I continued to be anxiety free. And even though I have had setbacks in the past few months with some of my addictions, I now feel I’m back on the path of God’s will. Through my faith in Jesus Christ, I believe that someday I will see a complete removal of these breakouts. Despite it being a daily battle of spiritual warfare, I am finally enjoying life once again now that I am free of anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts thanks to Jesus Christ. My self-esteem is no longer tied into my appearance and I am finally moving forward. Through my faith in Jesus Christ, I believe that someday I will be healed so I can see a complete removal of these breakouts and enjoy the kind of skin God intends for me to have!  I believe God is calling me to get my masters in professional counseling so I can specialize in Christian counseling. I want to help people who are struggling through life like I was and help them find the love of Jesus Christ and his miraculous healing powers, both of the mind, spirit and body. I want to show them his goodness and his ability to break any kind of bondage they are experiencing. If he broke the heavy bonds that acne had me tied up in, then he can help you too. If you’re suffering from a skin condition and feel like there’s no hope, I implore you to give it all up to God. Turn all your hurt, embarrassment, shame, hopelessness, and grief over to him because he does care about your skin. You may feel like he doesn’t care about something like your acne, eczema, psoriasis, rosacea, etc., but that is a lie Satan is telling you to make you feel alone. Jesus cares abouteverything you are going though. I encourage you to think about how and why God is using a skin condition in your life (Remember, God is NOT the source of illness, but that doesn’t mean he won’t use illness as a vehicle for spiritual growth in you). Could He be trying to get you to travel down a different path in life, to turn away from sin, and is using this as a wake up call? Could He be teaching you the importance of faith and trust in him for your healing? Could He be teaching you patience? Could He be asking you to finally surrender your “fight” to improve your skin and totally depend on Him for your healing rather than depending on your own power? Could he be trying to get you to stop idolizing and living for your skin (this is known as idolatry, which is a grave sin where you place more importance on something than you do God)? Or could He simply be using your skin condition to draw you closer to him? There could be any number of reasons why he allowed you to go through this ordeal. To this day, I am finding new reasons why God has let me suffer from acne, and although I would never want to go though it all again, I am so grateful I did go through it because I am such a better, more mature person because of it. I shudder when I think about where I would be today if God had allowed my skin to stay clear. I am so much closer to God and so excited to see where He takes me. It has been my pleasure sharing my testimony with you and I know you were led to this site by God so He can start to do wonderful things in your life. I know that with God, peace, joy and abundance lay in your future! Please email me if you want to talk more! May God bless you!!!!

 

Jamison